It's been a while

 I learnt something today! A few things actually! Firstly my partner Katie is incredible! This is not a thing I didn't know but today she pushed me without me knowing to restart my insanity workouts! Not only does she look after my two amazing children but she keeps house! Manages our money and always looks beautiful! Never gives up no matter what and more importantly never gives up on me!!

I also learnt that my hellish job ( I call it hellish not because of the job itself but for those that make me feel lacking, worthless and for the first time in my life I feel myself seeking that persons blessing daily that I am doing a good job but never has a person made me feel so worthless and dreadful.

But!

In order to better the lives of my family I need to continue and endure! Because good things come to those who keep fighting! Keep trying! And do! And that's important because people respect those who do! 

Where will I be next year? Who knows?! I know I want to contribute to the world I want to make a difference! Can I do the insanity certification? I hope so! It gives me hope? Do people believe I can do it? Or will do it?  No! Just another crazy idea by Tom. I know what people think about me and yes I do care that people don't take me seriously. I do care! It hurts.

But I have gone from 18 stone to 15 stone 8 pounds! I have done amazing! I am amazing! 

What about my psychic work?

I find my self stepping to a different platform to coaching and life blessings.

Sounds crazy I know! But I don't believe ghost hunts are the way forward. I believe people need hope, they need a path and they need to see something beyond the structures of reality.

So what does this mean? For me!?

Driving forward creating a better me! Not and never worrying what others thing or believe about me!

I am inherently lazy, short in my intention span. But I mean all I say! I mean all I challenge myself with. 

The challenges i face everyday is unimaginable. With my inner demons! My hand! My self esteem, 

I don't show half of it, nor do I talk about it often. I need to succeed this time! For my self worth and for those around me to feel proud of me!

Losing weight

I think part of it is perception. Recently I hurt my back. I'm ok now but as I recovered I felt really heavy. Thought I'd put loads of weight on. Turns out? I'd put 1 pathetic pound on! 

I had a conversion with that pound! Threw some insanity it's way! And it left! And took some lardy friends with it! Ha! 

Weight loss is 60% mind set! Believe me! If you believe you can do and use the other percentage to eat well and train. You can do it! It's ironically easy to loss weight it's keeping it off that's the problem.

Which is why diets generally don't work long term. Studies find more people who have dieted have gained more weight than they lost in the first place. You can't starve your body of what it craves. You have to overhaul you life style. It has to be a want, a need, an overwhelming arse kicking realisation that you and your body deserve the best life.

You can exercise until you blue in the face. If you don't overhaul and believe this is a long term thing, why bother? If you screw up? So what! Work harder the next day! 

Rant over! Love peeps!

Set back

Was doing really well with insanity workout then busted my back. Since then I have say on my bum for a week. It's getting better but not enough to work out. Problem is when I am not focused I eat and I eat the wrong stuff.

I know I've gained weight. Not much but enough to make me feel like shit.

As I am eating these wrong things I know I am doing it and hating myself for doing so.

Don't get me wrong I really want to catch up in my insanity work outs but can't invade I make matters worse with my back.

It's a vicious cycle I hate it.

Dunno what to do except the obvious.

Three choices

I exercise and I will stop eating shit, risk my back

Wait until fully better, risk eating crap

Stop eating crap and wait (the hardest of the three) 

Some visual assistance

Things to eat and avoid

Why insanity workouts are considered to be crazy and how these crazy results are achieved

People will define insanity in different ways. Some will say that insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly in order to get different results. This statement applies with Insanity workout. For betterInsanity workout results, onehas to repeat the same workout everyday and if you buy insanity workout DVD, this means that you will have to repeat the same exercise everyday for the amount of days put in place for example sixty days. It is also true to say that doing the same insanity workout practice will give you potentially amazing results.

Even though you are a person that works fairly but on regular basis, Insanity workout has the ability to challenge and push you to the level of your desire. If you take an insanity program for sixty days, you have the ability to change your physique and also your life. This is not like any other program in the market that with the ability to change one’s fitness. Insanity workout is considered to be insane because it involves working out to one’s maximum level all through the workouts with shorter periods of intense but less work, but the intense less work is more intense than what people actually think or perceive it to be.

It involves working one’s body to their limits and getting the most out of it in every minute one does the workout but whose results are guaranteed in a relatively shorter time. It is also considered not to be a workout for the faint hearted. If you go online and search for Insanity workout reviews, you will notice the levels at which people have gone through to develop the fitness they desired. No mediocre results can be achieved from insanity workout as the results are based on how much of the workouts you have done

Source http://www.demufder.org/why-insanity-workouts-are-considered-to-be-crazy-and-how-these-crazy-results-are-achieved/

First gym day

Ok, so it's not the first gym day but I've had near three weeks off due to injuries and strains.

So 6:20am early rise! Beautiful day! Very warm! Got to the gym weighed myself have gone from 16 stone 11 to 16 stone 13. Obviously a huge weight gain! So I am laying off the swimming for a while and concentrating on cardio and low weights in the gym.

I won't say I can cut out chocolates but I will certainly try. Juicing I've found difficult but writing a program I plan to follow.

So I plan to lose 4 pound this week. I want to be 15 stone by September for Amsterdam.