It's been a while

 I learnt something today! A few things actually! Firstly my partner Katie is incredible! This is not a thing I didn't know but today she pushed me without me knowing to restart my insanity workouts! Not only does she look after my two amazing children but she keeps house! Manages our money and always looks beautiful! Never gives up no matter what and more importantly never gives up on me!!

I also learnt that my hellish job ( I call it hellish not because of the job itself but for those that make me feel lacking, worthless and for the first time in my life I feel myself seeking that persons blessing daily that I am doing a good job but never has a person made me feel so worthless and dreadful.

But!

In order to better the lives of my family I need to continue and endure! Because good things come to those who keep fighting! Keep trying! And do! And that's important because people respect those who do! 

Where will I be next year? Who knows?! I know I want to contribute to the world I want to make a difference! Can I do the insanity certification? I hope so! It gives me hope? Do people believe I can do it? Or will do it?  No! Just another crazy idea by Tom. I know what people think about me and yes I do care that people don't take me seriously. I do care! It hurts.

But I have gone from 18 stone to 15 stone 8 pounds! I have done amazing! I am amazing! 

What about my psychic work?

I find my self stepping to a different platform to coaching and life blessings.

Sounds crazy I know! But I don't believe ghost hunts are the way forward. I believe people need hope, they need a path and they need to see something beyond the structures of reality.

So what does this mean? For me!?

Driving forward creating a better me! Not and never worrying what others thing or believe about me!

I am inherently lazy, short in my intention span. But I mean all I say! I mean all I challenge myself with. 

The challenges i face everyday is unimaginable. With my inner demons! My hand! My self esteem, 

I don't show half of it, nor do I talk about it often. I need to succeed this time! For my self worth and for those around me to feel proud of me!